That’s right… I’m forty today! Jeez, how did that happen?
I have to say, I’ve been feeling a fair bit of trepidation about this one. My usual, yearly birthday musings about where I am at and what I’m spending my time doing have been amplified by the magnitude of that number and the struggle which my sister is going through in her life… in some ways, that’s made me much more connected with the need to make the best of my life right now and yet, at the same time, I feel acutely aware of time passing. Surely both good motivators, no?! Well, definitely yes… but being moved by a sense of urgency alone can be exhausting- I also need to learn how and when to relax and go easy on life and myself! Some of my mates who’ve already stepped over the threshold into 40 say that it’s the time of not caring so much about other peoples expectations, of letting go of some of your own, of knowing when to push and when to surrender. I’m up for that.
So, my birthday wishes for the year ahead? Peace for Sarah, however that takes shape, and some family time. Tenacity. A shower (or even a bath!) in my very own, new bathroom and lots of friends in our house. The beginnings of a back garden. Some time to get to know my new, soon-to-arrive macro lens, a very generous present from my family- be prepared for lots of plant photos! A glimpse of a different horizon- NYC? Scotland? Some good creating. Is that too many wishes?! It is 40, after all- I figure I get a few extra this year!